E.M.P.T.Y

pernah ga siy ngerasa empty in ur heart..?
rasa ny kyk ada sesuatu yg hilang
kyk ada lubang menganga di hati yg ga ketauan seberapa dalem ny
perasaan yg sepi dan sunyi
perasaan yg sedih dan memilukan
rasa yg bner2 ga nyaman
rasa yg bikin qta mau nangis terus

beberapa hari belakangan ini Vhe selalu ngerasa empty
ga tau knapa
tiba2 pas bangun tidur Vhe ngerasa hampa aja
padahal jam uda nunjukin angka yg pasti bikin kaka Vhe banting panci
tp Vhe ga peduli
Vhe malah ngerasa ga mau bangun lagi
pengen tetep tiduran aja di kasur
pengen tetep ada di dalam kamar
entah sampe kapan

feeling empty jg bikin Vhe ilang selera
ga selera makan
no matter how hungry Vhe is
ga selera mandi
no matter how smell Vhe is
ga selera nonton tv
no matter there are Vhe's favorite shows
ga selera ngobrol
no matter Vhe's sister keeps asking what's wrong
bner2 ga selera ngapa-ngapain

dulu klo lg ngerasa hampa kyk gini, Vhe selalu curhat sma Alm. Mom
and then she would hug me
she made me smile again
she gave me spirit and courage
she always made me feel better
now that she's passed away, Vhe is completely lost
alone and lonely
Vhe can only cry silently
wishing that this empty feeling would go away

Vhe really miss Mom :'(